Always Keep Learning

Rev Kane at Burning Man 2017

Learn to enjoy every minute of your life. Be happy now. Don’t wait for something outside of yourself to make you happy in the future. Think how really precious is the time you have to spend, whether it’s at work or with your family. Every minute should be enjoyed and savored. ~ Earl Nightingale

Each Sunday I sit down to think what I’m going to write about for my Ministry of Happiness of post. This week, thinking about it while I was on the treadmill at the gym, I realized what I had learned this week. More importantly, it was reminder that none of us are done a product. It’s ironic, the one thing we want to do as children is to be bigger, to grow up and be an adult. We’re convinced that being an adult is the goal, kind of like mixing batter is being a kid, but a fully baked cake is being an adult. We’re so naive as children, and sometimes that naivety bleeds into adulthood. There are times when we think just for a little bit that we’ve got things worked out. That thought seems to be a taunt to the universe to show us differently.

I have come to believe over the last few years that I might not have the capability to experience romantic love anymore. It’s not the first time I’ve felt this way, I very acutely remember having this feeling while living in Salinas about 16 years ago, it was about five minutes later that I fell madly in love with someone and fell harder than I never had before. Now that didn’t happen last week, what hit me was more of a quick infatuation, but it’s something I haven’t felt for a long time, possibility.

The Meaning of Life

This comes at a strange time for me, it always seem to be the case doesn’t it. I’m at a point right now where I’m wondering if I should continue the plan I’ve put in place or make a radical change. This feeling has been building for a while and I know soon I either commit to my original plan and carry it out, or drop the hammer and make a big change. The default world has been chewing me up lately, not sure I can keep going the way I’m going. I spent a little time in the mountains this weekend, it’s a great place to get your head clear. I need some more time there to figure things out. At the end of the day my dilemma is all about one thing, feeding my passion. I have a good job, but my passion is starving.

Find what you love and let it kill you ~ Charles Bukowski

The lesson in all of this is that we are never a finished product. We always have to stay soft and pliable enough to grow in a different direction, like a young tree bending toward the sun. We’re never too old to learn, never too old to change, never too old to take a risk. ~ Rev Kane