Rev Kane’s Wild Ride: T-minus 7 Days

When the going gets weird, the weird go pro ~ Hunter S Thompson

Rev Kane’s Wild Ride: T-minus 7 Days

So we’re into the final countdown, a week from today at this moment, if all goes well, I’ll be coming down from being stoned off of my ass in ICU. Given that I’ll be getting a cocktail of fentanyl, ketamine and propofol I’m gonna be pretty out of it. I’ll also have an IV in my carotid artery, an IV in my arm, chest tubes, a catheter and a couple of pacemaker wires to juice my heart if it slows down too much. My transition to cyborg will be complete.

This week has been all about the pre-op preparation, appointments with nurses, lots of directions about drugs and such, picking up new prescriptions and final set ups in my apartment. It’s also my last week at work so of course I’m busy as hell, everyone, as expected, wants one last minute meeting. Well except for the faculty who think they are being sneaky and are already reaching out to the new dean to try and get decisions they don’t like changed. Of course, I’ve already anticipated that and fully read in my replacement about who they are, and what they’re going to try and do.

Had a nice surprise today, ended up on a text chain and in a chat with a bunch of my old fraternity brothers from the early 80’s. It’s always interesting chatting with folks you have known for forty years and who knew you in a really different phase of your life. They only knew me as an alcoholic and addict, someone who was always up for madness. Which in fact we found plenty of and some of those stories got retold today, it was fun.

While I expected people to be nice about the surgery, I have been truly surprised about how nice. At work, something that has been really nice is that the work I’ve put in for years in this job seems to have worked out. You never know how much impact you’ve actually had on people, or if they really appreciate what you’ve done. This week has been a bit of a revelation. There were people I expected to be nice, to give me a hug and wish me well. But the real surprise has been the other people, some I don’t even supervise who have shown up to wish me well and tell me how much they appreciate the work I do. I’ve also really surprisingly have been given a lot of small gifts. A few have been really nice and thoughtful including a copy of Monty Python’s The Search for the Holy Grail, which they appropriately said, will likely need to wait a few weeks to watch, because laughing will be painful for a time.

It’s been a nice surprise and at seven days this all seems more than a bit surreal, hence the HST quotes, because it’s Fear and Loathing in SF baby. ~ Rev Kane

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Three Questions, April 30, 2025

Buy the ticket, take the ride. ~ Hunter S. Thompson

Three Questions, April 30, 2025

You can find the background to The Three Questions in my recent post about it. I’ll be answering the questions each day for the next year and putting this experience into a book. Here we go!

What was the most beautiful thing I encountered today?

Forgot about some of my aquarium shots and looking over them today was the most beautiful thing I encountered.

What did I learn today?

Been reading some really fascinating articles on artificial photosynthesis that has some incredible promise.

What made me happy today?

Caught up with some really old friends today, guys from my old fraternity days. Reminiscing about some really crazy days from the early 80’s made me happy.

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Three Questions, April 29, 2025

A word to the wise is infuriating ~ Hunter S Thompson

Three Questions, April 29, 2025

You can find the background to The Three Questions in my recent post about it. I’ll be answering the questions each day for the next year and putting this experience into a book. Here we go!

What was the most beautiful thing I encountered today?

It was a beautiful day for the my walk, sunny, 60 and gorgeous flowers everywhere along my walk.

What did I learn today?

Cortical Labs has built a human brain cell computer, the computer fuses human neural networks with silicon hardware.

What made me happy today?

Today I had a number of people say some really amazing things to me today about their time working for me, made me really happy.

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Three Questions, April 28, 2025

The Edge… there is no honest way to explain it because the only people who really know where it is are the ones who have gone over. ~ Hunter S Thompson

Three Questions, April 28, 2025

You can find the background to The Three Questions in my recent post about it. I’ll be answering the questions each day for the next year and putting this experience into a book. Here we go!

What was the most beautiful thing I encountered today?

I saw Ryan Coogler’s Sinners today, it was an interesting movie, I won’t give any spoilers her, but what I will say is that it’s a beautifully shot film. Setting, sets, costumes all were really amazing.

What did I learn today?

They’ve invented a new textile, Diamene, thinner and lighter than kevlar and actually bullet resistant, a really cool invention.

What made me happy today?

I have the best dentist and office, today I got a card from them wishing me well on my upcoming surgery, so sweet.

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Three Questions, April 27, 2025

Find joy in everything you choose to do. Every job, relationship, home… it’s your responsibility to love it, or change it. ~ Chuck Palahniuk

Three Questions, April 27, 2025

You can find the background to The Three Questions in my recent post about it. I’ll be answering the questions each day for the next year and putting this experience into a book. Here we go!

What made me happy today?

Getting the tiny patio garden in place and ready for summer as well as ready for the next couple of months where I will have a lot of time to sit around and just enjoy my garden.

What did I learn today?

In France, all supermarkets give leftover food to the needy, seems like a great idea.

What made me happy today?

Tacos, I had some really tasty tacos for lunch and let’s face it, tacos always make you happy.

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Three Questions, April 26, 2025

A fool thinks himself to be wise, but a wise man knows himself to be a fool. ~ William Shakespeare

Three Questions, April 26, 2025

You can find the background to The Three Questions in my recent post about it. I’ll be answering the questions each day for the next year and putting this experience into a book. Here we go!

What was the most beautiful thing I encountered today?

Today, a poem by Shakespeare was the most beautiful thing I encountered.

What did I learn today?

The James Webb Space Telescope may have found biomarkers of life on an exoplanet.

What made me happy today?

I got a new shirt, if you’re going to have to wear button up shirts during recovery, you absolutely should have a psychedelic bigfoot shirt.

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Three Questions,  April 25, 2025

Three Questions, April 25, 2025

You can find the background to The Three Questions in my recent post about it. I’ll be answering the questions each day for the next year and putting this experience into a book. Here we go!

What was the most beautiful thing I encountered today?

Monterey again, my view on the bay at lunch, pretty flowers and cool houses.

What did I learn today?

A Chinese team has created concrete that can store electricity like a battery. Has big implications for home building.

What made me happy today?

A great lunch, a nice walk along the bay, and a deep tissue massage.

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Three Questions, April 24, 2025

In one drop of water are found all the secrets of all the oceans; in one aspect of You are found all the aspects of existence.                      – Khalil Gibran

Three Questions, April 24, 2025

You can find the background to The Three Questions in my recent post about it. I’ll be answering the questions each day for the next year and putting this experience into a book. Here we go!

What was the most beautiful thing I encountered today?

The Monterey Bay Aquarium, all of it. I love this place but my happyplace is absolutely the jellies’ room.

What did I learn today?

I learned that the canneries on cannery row were almost completely staffed by women, sometimes working 14 hour shifts.

What made me happy today?

A Monterey day, the aquarium, a great breakfast, pretty flowers, and long walks on the coast.

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Three Questions,  April 23,2025

Three Questions, April 23, 2025

You can find the background to The Three Questions in my recent post about it. I’ll be answering the questions each day for the next year and putting this experience into a book. Here we go!

What was the most beautiful thing I encountered today?

Lovely flowers on the waterfront in Monterey.

What did I learn today?

That the alter stone at Stonehenge, that they thought came from Wales, actually originated from Scotland, 466 miles away.

What made me happy today?

Some lovely cod bites and a Guinness on Monterey Bay.

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Rev Kane’s Wild Ride: Surgery Dreams

Yesterday’s weirdness is tomorrow’s reason why. ~ Hunter S Thompson

Rev Kane’s Wild Ride: Surgery Dreams

Surgery day is coming up quickly and preparing for surgery is of course taking over my life in every way possible. It eats up my work days, my email, my schedule but most of all it eats up my mental energy. Everything I do, every decision, every thought somehow ties back to my surgery, the fear, the recovery, etc…

So it came as no surprise last night when my upcoming surgery finally invaded my dreams and man they were some surreal damn whoppers. The first dream I just walked into the hospital and strolled into the operating room and there was my surgeon, restocking flyers on a shelf. He was surprised to see me and quickly moved to cover up the chunks of wood on the counter. So I asked him is that the wood they’ll be using in my legs? Because for some reason, apparently in my dream in addition to heart surgery they were going to cut my leg bones and put wooden spacers in my legs to make me taller. I immediately realized I hadn’t considered the pain I’d have walking and how it was going to fuck up all of my preparations and I happily woke up, rolled over and ended that one.

The next dream, I walked into the hospital and back into the operating room again and my doctor and I were chatting and I remembered that I had to actually check-in through admitting. So I left the operating room and went up to admitting. It was a total cluster, going to multiple people each who sent me to another person and another. I finally get to someone and they tell me they have to go to lunch. Finally someone takes me to an office to check me into the hospital, they give me a band on my arm and send me to my room. So I go up to my room and I see it’s a share room and eventually I decide to leave my stuff and then someone starts hammering on the door. I let him in, he’s looking for someone so I decide to leave. But then I decide to go back to my room, but the elevators won’t go to the right floor. Suddenly there are massive numbers of suites and I can’t find my room.

The next dream I’m in the operating room on the table and I have my sneakers on, and this pisses off the anesthesiologist and he rips them off my feet in disgust. Suddenly, there’s another table right next to mine with an enormous middle eastern dude on it. We’re like an inch apart, he’s completely naked and basically a Ken doll. He’s just chatting away to me about random shit and I realize the sheet I’m under has blood all over it, then I woke up.

Three surgery dreams in one night, I woke up in a seriously confused state of mind and was happy to get up and get my day started. But surreal is definitely the term that applied, feel free to go nuts with the psychoanalysis in the comments. ~ Rev Kane

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