You can turn your back on a person, but never turn your back on a drug, especially when its waving a razor sharp hunting knife in your eye. ~ Hunter S Thompson

Rev Kane’s Wild Ride: Random Thoughts

This is an absolutely selfish post, you see the way I process things is by writing, it’s how I get the energy out and calm my brain down. I’m in the home stretch for my surgery so I’m running a little manic getting last minute things done. Today was a lot. I had to upload my will and other documents to the share site, I had three phone calls from people who wanted to check in before my surgery. I had to do some last minute shopping, check on my mail, pack a box I’m sending out to my littlest niece and nephews. Not to mention all of the standard stuff, laundry, my walk, working out etc… I had to set up the finishing touches on my apartment, move a table, set up my DVD player, pull CDs and DVDs to have them easily available. I had some last minute purchases to take care of including setting up some suction cup hooks in my bathroom.

Then I cleaned out my car, I’m picking up my sister and her friend from the airport tomorrow. I’m starting to pack and making sure I have the things I need ready, checking my medication changes and picked up a gift for my assistant who has been amazing in setting things up for my recovery. Tomorrow I still have a lot of things to do, I need to set up driving instructions for people who are going to be helping me out, including taking some pictures of the complex entrance and parking spots. I need to get some cash into the house so I can reimburse people for groceries and buy the stuff I want in my refrigerator for after I come back from the hospital. It’s a lot.

I think it’s a good thing surgery got delayed a couple of weeks, I never would have gotten everything done at work, or everything I needed to get done if it hadn’t been. In so many ways, this whole process and worked out really well. But honestly, I had hoped the two days before surgery would have been a couple of easy and relaxing days, so much for that idea, but I’ll have three months to catch up on sleep after Wednesday.

I’ve had a lot of conversations about my surgery, some of the conversations are great, some are taxing, all put my head in the space around the what ifs and as such I’ll be writing some notes tomorrow night to go out to people if things go wrong. But my chances are excellent that this all works out well and I’m keeping positive thoughts for the whole thing.

The HST quote that I used tonight seems to be on point, for my surgery I’ll be getting Ketamine, Fentanyl and Propofol as well as that heavy drug Tylenol. And there certainly will be people coming at me with razor sharp objects including scalpels and bone saws. All of this has been surreal enough that HST seems to be the right source for quotes.

Ok, hopefully burning all of that out will let me sleep tonight. This will likely be my last post before the surgery, I’ll likely have a time released post coming out the day of and hope to be back and writing at least something small to say I’m ok by the weekend.

Keep a good thought and have a happy day my friends. ~ Rev Kane