It will be okay

Even the darkest night will end and the sun will rise again. ~ Victor Hugo

Good evening friends, I have to be honest I’m not feeling it tonight.  As much as I talk and write about happiness and work/life balance, even I fall-down sometimes.  My work life has changed significantly since our college closed the campus in March as a result of COVID 19.  Essentially, for the last 10 weeks at work I have face sequential two week deadlines, one is met just in time to start working on the next.  It has meant for most of that time working nights and weekends pretty much without a break.  And yes, I understand I’m so much better off than people out of work.  I have a family member who will find out tomorrow if they still have a job.  So I do get it.  But the reality is, with no expectation that this lets up for another 4-6 weeks, I am completely fried.  This weekend has really shown me how beat down I am.  I have a major project that is due this week and I just haven’t been able to muster more than an hour of work at a time.  I’ve too often this weekend found myself falling into my chair and staring at the TV.  I know a lot of us are in this space right now.  Between COVID 19, horrible economic numbers, protests and having our lives flipped upside down, a lot of us are just burned out.

I have a well-meaning boss, she keeps telling me to take time off.  Unfortunately right now that’s not an option because there is simply no one else to pick up the slack and do the things I’m doing right now.  So where that advice is normally welcoming, at this point, it’s a bit infuriating.

The message I want to send tonight, and I realize I’m not doing this gracefully or artfully in any way, is that things will get better.  They will, it will take time and I realize that if you’re in the space I am right now, that’s not all that comforting.  I wish I had more for you tonight, I really do.  I wish I could give you a date when life would find some normalcy again,  I wish I could tell you when the economy will turn around, when your kids will go back to school, or even when you’ll get your job back.  I can’t.  But I do know that eventually we will find some normalcy, we’ll adapt, things will be okay.

So do you’re best to breathe, to find a moment to just be, time to be kind to others and ways to laugh.  Be well my friends and try to have a happy day.  ~ Rev Kane