Happiness is Poetry: Dominique Lowell

Happiness is Poetry: Dominique Lowell

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Dominique Lowell

Poetry is thoughts that breathe, words that burn. ~ Thomas Gray

A warning right off of the bat, Dominique Lowell will not be for everyone.  If you like flowery, lovely poetry stop now.  If you like your poetry, in your face, rude, full of explicit language and vulgar language, read on. Which of course is what I like it’s why I really dig poets like Sapphire and Warsan Shire.  It’s hard to find any of Dominique Lowell’s work online, I’ve read a few of her pieces in compilations.  I found her in the American Bible of Outlaw Poetry, my favorite poetry compilation.  So I’ve gathered up two pieces for you tonight.  Enjoy! ~ Rev Kane

I’ve just about had it with all of you a Youtube performance of spoken word poetry

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Women are Hungry

women are hungry
they be hoes
they be sittin on your stoop waitin to drink your beer
eat your food
suck your dick
women are hungry

they need your favorite shirt your leather jacket
a house and a car
they just neeeeeed
they wanna tell you things, pretty little things about
the light in your eyes and the feel of your thighs
they wanna shave your balls
have you tell them about every clit you ever licked every ass
you ever eyed so they can
slice them all to ribbons
they’re insatiable
it’s biological

they just want and want and stretch their yearning arms at you
their craving lusting insatiable envelopes gawking open mouthed
must have must have must have it
you
now

whore mother goddess priestess convict jailer
needy neeedy needy needy
need your sperm need your job need space need more impossible paint
for another impossible face
crimson lips and concrete sharpened nails
blackened purple eyes
the beaten look, that’s it
already been hit

feed me
feed me beer and cigarettes and dead idols who make me feel like
I might have a reason to die too
give me War and Coca-Cola and the promise of another American
chance
give me another good song to dance to
tell me I’m not fat
tell me my tits are jewels, my nipples gumpdrops
tell me we can pay the rent tomorrow
tell me we are just like John and Yoko only I get to die first
O.K.? I get to be the one they light the candles for in Central
Park, O.K.?

Fuck Women.
They are such sluttish catfight evile bitches
every one of them
Beware. Beware.
They know what they are doing.
Does that scare you, are you scared

women are hungry
hungry for balance
I been called a whore so many times I almost became one
and it’s not you personally I want anything out of
It’s the world
the World owes me BigTime
The World leaves me hungry

— Dominique Lowell, “Women Are Hungry” (as appears in New American Underground Poetry: Vol. 1: The Babarians of San Francisco – Poets from Hell

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Happiness is Poetry: Rumi

Happiness is Poetry: Rumi

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Tonight a selection from one of the most popular and most quoted poets, Rumi.

A Moment of Happiness

A moment of happiness,
you and I sitting on the verandah,
apparently two, but one in soul, you and I.
We feel the flowing water of life here,
you and I, with the garden’s beauty
and the birds singing.
The stars will be watching us,
and we will show them
what it is to be a thin crescent moon.
You and I unselfed, will be together,
indifferent to idle speculation, you and I.
The parrots of heaven will be cracking sugar
as we laugh together, you and I.
In one form upon this earth,
and in another form in a timeless sweet land.

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Be Lost in the Call

Lord, said David, since you do not need us,
why did you create these two worlds?

Reality replied: O prisoner of time,
I was a secret treasure of kindness and generosity,
and I wished this treasure to be known,
so I created a mirror: its shining face, the heart;
its darkened back, the world;
The back would please you if you’ve never seen the face.

Has anyone ever produced a mirror out of mud and straw?
Yet clean away the mud and straw,
and a mirror might be revealed.

Until the juice ferments a while in the cask,
it isn’t wine. If you wish your heart to be bright,
you must do a little work.

My King addressed the soul of my flesh:
You return just as you left.
Where are the traces of my gifts?

We know that alchemy transforms copper into gold.
This Sun doesn’t want a crown or robe from God’s grace.
He is a hat to a hundred bald men,
a covering for ten who were naked.

Jesus sat humbly on the back of an ass, my child!
How could a zephyr ride an ass?
Spirit, find your way, in seeking lowness like a stream.
Reason, tread the path of selflessness into eternity.

Remember God so much that you are forgotten.
Let the caller and the called disappear;
be lost in the Call.

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Because I Cannot Sleep

Because I cannot sleep
I make music at night.
I am troubled by the one
whose face has the color of spring flowers.
I have neither sleep nor patience,
neither a good reputation nor disgrace.
A thousand robes of wisdom are gone.
All my good manners have moved a thousand miles away.
The heart and the mind are left angry with each other.
The stars and the moon are envious of each other.
Because of this alienation the physical universe
is getting tighter and tighter.
The moon says, ‘How long will I remain
suspended without a sun?’
Without Love’s jewel inside of me,
let the bazaar of my existence be destroyed stone by stone.
O Love, You who have been called by a thousand names,
You who know how to pour the wine
into the chalice of the body,
You who give culture to a thousand cultures,
You who are faceless but have a thousand faces,
O Love, You who shape the faces
of Turks, Europeans, and Zanzibaris,
give me a glass from Your bottle,
or a handful of being from Your Branch.
Remove the cork once more.
Then we’ll see a thousand chiefs prostrate themselves,
and a circle of ecstatic troubadours will play.
Then the addict will be freed of craving.
and will be resurrected,
and stand in awe till Judgement Day

 

 

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Happiness is Catching Leaves

Happiness is Catching Leaves

leavesIt’s the simple things in life that are the most extraordinary; only wise men are able to understand them ~ Paulo Coelho

It’s finally Fall, my favorite season of the year, the weather turns sunny but cooler, there is that smell on the air, fallen leaves, wood smoke, Halloween and Thanksgiving on the horizon.  It’s a great time of the year to be outside in nature and I’ve always spent more time in the forest this time of year than any other.  Driving today in the country I passed lots of signs for apple picking and pumpkin patches, the roadside stands in addition to selling fruits are now well stocked with pies as well.

Of all of the Fall memories that I have the most cherished one of them all is being on the playground at lunchtime as a little kid.  Our school had a really large tree right in the middle of the playground, it always saddens me to go by there and see that the tree is now long gone.  But in the Fall, when the weather would start to turn cold and windy, a lot of the other kids would stay inside during lunch.  For me though, it was the best time, you see on those cold Winnie the Pooh type blustery days I would go outside to catch leaves.

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There was nothing more fun that running round and round in dizzying circles trying to catch those spinning flashes of gold.  The joy of catching one of those simple leaves was immeasurable, a feat not easily done.  I would spend all of my lunchtimes for weeks catching those leaves until that sad morning when walking into school I would look up and see only bare branches.  But that is the essential nature of the Fall, beautiful sunny wonderful days that fade into the cold grey fingers of winter.  So while those sunny days are here, go outside and catch some falling leaves and have a happy day my friends              ~ Rev Kane

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Happiness Resources: Mindfulness

Happiness Resources: Mindfulness

happiness mindfulnessThe best way to capture moments is to pay attention. This is how we cultivate mindfulness. Mindfulness means being awake. It means knowing what you are doing. ~ Jon Kabat-Zinn

Tonight a look at an idea that is gaining a lot of attention these days, mindfulness.  Mindfulness and specifically mindfulness meditation has some excellent benefits in life.  A great book on the subject is Thich Nhat Hanh’s, Miracle of Mindfulness a book I very much enjoyed.

First from the Greater Good, The Basics of Mindfulness

A piece on everyday mindfulness, exercises to relieve stress

Want a Happier Brain, Try Mindfulness

Finally a nice little four-minute video with Thich Nhat Hanh answering the question, What is Mindfulness

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Living Your Choices

Living Your Choices

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Rev Kane in Ireland

Sooner or later, everyone sits down to a banquet of consequences. ~ Rev Kane

I’m posting an older picture of me tonight, I personally think it’s one of the two best pictures ever taken of me.  It’s also a reminder of travel, for regular readers, you know I’m a nomad.  The pandemic has led to the cancellation of three large trips and now four smaller trips which included cancelling two sets of time off from work.  So I’ve been working far too much and not wandering at all, which is not good for a nomad.  Work has also been a bear and I’m currently mentally drained.  I actually tried to unlock my front door with my car key FOB the other day.

Part of what has weighed me down right now is that I’ve recently had a retirement analysis done and I’ll need to work a year longer than I had anticipated.  Now, I deserve no sympathy on that, it still means I’ll be able to retire at 61 and have a nice pension in retirement.  Another thing on my mind is a position has opened up which is the type of position I was targeting when I took this job, but like then, whether or not to apply is likely coming down to a financial decision.  I’m fortunate to be in a job and a district that pays very well, so the choice is money versus a more attractive position.  Over my life that has been an easy decision, I’ve chosen the more attractive position.  However, closing in on retirement and given the way our pensions are calculated, finances may win out this time.  I’ve got about a week or so to decide.

The fact is I’m ok with my little dilemma  You see wherever you are, where I am now, is a result of all of the previous choices we’ve ever made.  If I chose the money over the position this time it’s ok.  You see I’m in this position because I took a lot of student loans in college, because I opted for better work/life balance over my career by taking gap years and by choosing to work in the retirement system that I’m in.  I think we are disingenuous when we say, if we could go back in time we wouldn’t change a thing, there are always things I believe all of us would have done differently.  However for me, there aren’t a lot, and given where I started in life, I’m pretty happy about where I’ve landed.

And this is the point for my post tonight, we’ve all made choices that have led us to where we are in our lives.  If we are satisfied with where we are, fantastic, if not, well then you need to make changes.  Our happiness very much depends on our ability to accept ourselves.  Acceptance is a necessary starting point to building a life around ourselves that we can be truly happy with and proud of.  There is also an aspect to acceptance that is important to think about, which is that you can’t expect things to be perfect.  At times, there are things that haven’t worked out the way we had hoped,  acceptance is the best option at these times particularly if you are dealing with things out of your control.

So friends tonight, join me in taking a second to sit back, reflect, be proud of what you’ve accomplished, accept what you can’t change and start planning to change the things you should.  Do this, and I promise you’ll have happier days. ~ Rev Kane

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Happy Spring Blooms

Happy Spring Blooms

You can cut all of the flowers but you can’t keep spring from coming. ~ Pablo Neruda

The last week has brought some really spectacular spring weather to the Bay Area of California where I live. First, very warm sunny days and cool nights that then have shifted into typical spring sunny days. Following after some rain this has meant an explosion of flowers. So today while on my walk I did a lot of shooting of pretty flowers. This is all particularly apt this year, after a year of feeling like we’ve been living through some sort of forced winter, we’re starting to emerge carefully, hoping that things will continue to improve, that spring has truly arrived. So nothing complex, deep or profound tonight, just grateful for the good things in my life. The ability to Zoom with my littlest nieces and nephews high off of their Easter Egg hunt, for nice weather, good health, a hearty meal and a little bit of optimism in terms of our COVID lives.

Have a happy day my friend and enjoy the pretty pictures (click on them to get a a larger image), you can see many, many more on my Instagram account @reverendmichaelkane ~ Rev Kane

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Happiness Moments: Woodstock 94

Happiness Moments: Woodstock 94

I’m going down to Yasgur’s Farm, Gonna join in a rock ‘n’ roll band,
Got to get back to the land, Set my soul free ~ CSNY/Joni Mitchell

So a new little writing experiment for the blog. I’ve been wanting to find a way to do some free writing as practice. And I’ve been wanting to capture the moments in my life that have brought me true happiness. I need that little pick me up right now with everything going on in the world and no real chance to travel. So, some writing about happy moments in my life, hope they bring you a little happiness too.

I had just finished my run the other night and got back in the car, plugged in my mp3 player and Crosby, Stills, Nash and Young was up and the song was Woodstock, one of my absolute favorite CSNY songs.  A song originally written by another artist I love, the magnificent Joni Mitchell.

I grew up near Woodstock and have a clear memory of when it was happening in 1969.  As a five year-old I knew my aunt was there, but what really caught my attention was the news coverage about the New York State Thruway.  You see, as a munchkin, the Thruway, which we took to NYC and to New Jersey to visit relatives, was my whole definition of a big highway.  And here was a newscaster showing aerial footage of cars parked on the highway as he informed the world that the New York State Thruway was closed.  This was an utterly inconceivable idea to my young brain.  It also may be the reason I’ve always been into Arlo Guthrie’s music, you see he has a very famous quote, in his twangy voice from the stage at Woodstock, “Can you dig it, the New York State Thruway is closed man.”

So, having been to the site many times during my life, when they announced the anniversary concert in 1994 I had to go.  My intrepid friend Rich opted to join me on the adventure.  I forget the cost, but in the spirit of the original event, I refused to buy a ticket and we decided to make the trip.  We got a ride down near event, the State Police had shut the roads near the event to all but ticket holders and residents.  So we slipped off the road and hiked down the train tracks to get past the blockade.  After getting back up to the highway, we hitched a ride with a couple of throwback hippies in their van, they were also heading to festival.  We ate sandwiches they gave us and had a couple of beers with them.

We rolled up to the venue around sunset and took in the situation.  Security was being really diligent about checking tickets, which were in fact these long white wrist bands.  So we came up with a plan.  In my little first aid kit I had scissors and white medical tape which was pretty close in color to the wrist bands.  So we started volunteering to snip off the inconvenient extended pieces of peoples’ wristbands.  Then we constructed fairly convincing fake wrist bands for ourselves.  We eventually made enough for the four of us that were hanging out together as it was starting to get dark.  We figured going to the gate in a crowd and in the dark was our best shot of getting in.

The security set up for the venue was a double lined chain link fence that separated the public from the ticketed area where the festival was happening.  There was even a little stream that ran between the two fences.  As we were getting ready to put our plan into motion I went over by a secluded part of the fence to take a leak and when I got over there I noticed that someone had actually cut a whole in the fence.  It was fully dark at this point, so I popped back over and let everyone know we had a way in.  We quickly headed over, slipped through the first fence, splashed through the stream, went up a little hill and scaled the interior fence.  Boom, we were in.

We spent the first night walking around, listening to bands at the different stages and generally just reveling and being amazed by the size of the crowd.  Since it was a camping event and we didn’t have a tent, (we had to travel light), we just had bedrolls.  We decided to get something to eat and find a place to crash for the night.  Eventually we found some green space between a few tents and dropped our bedrolls.  It had been an exciting day and we were beat.  Even with the noise and chaos, it was calm enough where we were and we dropped off to sleep.

Wow, look how young I was.

When we had crashed for the night we hadn’t seen anyone in the tents next to us and as you can see from the picture above we were packed in pretty tight.  As the sun and the noise came up people started to emerge from their tents.  Rich and I were wedged between the entrances to two tents.  The first tent was a couple from Japan, they spoke very little English but were friendly and kind and fed us Kit Kat bars for breakfast.  From the other tent a guy emerged and shared in the Kit Kats and started to chat with us.  He was at the show with his girlfriend selling t-shirts.  His claim to fame was that he was in fact, Max Yasgur’s grandson.  Max Yasgur’s farm was the site of the original Woodstock festival in 1969.  He was a great guy and both he and his girlfriend were super friendly and gave us a couple of bottles of water.

The weather forecast was for rain and Rich and I planned to at some point during day 2 of the festival to take off if it looked like weather was coming in.  The lack of a tent made the idea of sleeping in the rain not real appealing.  So we started to wander the grounds and it was a great day, constant music, constant madness, crazy people everywhere.  It was the days of MTV and they were everywhere, we even were present for one of their VJs, Kennedy, doing a live remote for the network.  But without a doubt my highlight at the festival was when I went looking for a porter potty.  On the way back there was a scraggly looking dude sitting on the ground playing guitar.  He was really amazingly talented so I stopped to listen when I noticed that he’d scrawled a note on a paper plate propped up next to him, “Hi I’m Joe Walsh.”  And it was, here was the front man of the James Gang, a guitarist for one of my favorite bands, the Eagles.  It was amazing, he was just hanging out in this little corner of the festival playing guitar, just wanting to be part of it all like I did.

Kennedy, MTV VJ at Woodstock 94

It had a been a great day, and as often happens to me at huge events, I ran into someone I knew.  My friend Lori who I had worked with at a supermarket and her husband I had known were at the event.  And sure enough, I suddenly heard my name and Lori threw her arms around me.  During the day, security, like at the original festival, had given up on gate checking tickets.  So of course ingenious folks had started heading into town and buying wagons full of booze and bringing it back in.  Prior to that point there had obviously been drugs, but not much booze in the venue.  Things had also been pretty peaceful, but drunken festival goers would obviously start to change that vibe.  In addition, the skies were growing dark.  So we made the call to head for my mom’s house a little over twenty miles away.

We started hiking out of town and eventually caught a ride north in the back of a pickup truck.  The driver was willing to drop us about 5 miles from my mom’s place.  Just as he dropped us off the skies opened up and it started to pour.  We walked a couple of miles in the rain and then were able to get a ride back to my mom’s place where our cars were parked.

The scenes of the mud pit that the festival turned into are probably the most famous images of the Woodstock 94 festival, Green Day famously got into a mud fight with the crowd during their performance.  To be honest I’m happy to have missed that part, because things got a bit out of control during the mud and rain and buckets of booze that poured into the festival.  But my memories of this little festival are precious, this was one of my earlier adventures and it just fueled my desire to always find ways to bring a little adventure and extra happiness into my life. ~ Rev Kane

 

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Simple Gratitude and Wisdom

Simple Gratitude and Wisdom

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It’s Superbowl Sunday and as I post this most people are watching the game.  I’ve heard this day referred to as an unofficial American holiday.  I’m honestly not all that interested in the outcome tonight, there are no parties to attend, so today turned into a lovely mellow Sunday.  For tonight’s post just a little simple gratitude and wisdom.

The last year has been difficult on all of us and in a discussion this week someone asked, in the middle of all of this madness what are you grateful for?  It was an easy answer for me, it’s technology.  Particularly the level of video conferencing technology that we have currently available to us.  Regular readers know that I’m a nomad, as such, travel is a hugely important part of my life.  I’m currently in the longest period of time in my adult life that I’ve gone without an adventure, a long-distance hike or an international trip.  So this also means I haven’t had a chance to be face to face with my nieces and nephews.  Especially the littlest ones, ages one, four, six and seven it’s hard, they changes so much, so fast when they are young.  If it wasn’t for video conferencing I’d be missing it all.  The opportunity to get to Zoom with them even for a half an hour is pure joy.  Watching my littlest niece change even call to call has been wonderful.

Finally tonight, a little simple wisdom from the Smoochy Monster.  My cousin who has a brain injury is someone who is incredibly wonderful about writing and calling her family.  She kindly sends out cards to all of us.  I had picked up a card from the post office yesterday but didn’t open it until today.  In the card, along with her standard script of I love you and I miss you, was this extra little line.  Her timing was excellent as this has been a really difficult week.

She wrote, “Take a break, step outside into the sunshine, close your eyes and hold your arms out to the side.  Imagine you’re standing their with all of the people who love you all around you and smile.”

Take her advice and have a happy day my friends. ~ Rev Kane

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A Real Vacation – Part 3 (up the coast)

A Real Vacation – Part 3 (up the coast)

Recently I had my first vacation in a year, as I discussed in part1 (Anza Borrego) and part 2 (The Madonna Inn), a real vacation is the type where we actually can get out of our heads and our lives and truly relax. My recent real vacation started in the Mojave Desert and then a night at the Madonna Inn in San Luis Obispo and finally a day driving up the Pacific Coast starting in Morro Bay.

My plan for the day was simple, to drive down to the harbor in Morro Bay and take a walk along the ocean. Then drive slowly up the coast and stop when I found anything interesting to photograph. The fact is I ended up spending a couple of hours in Morro Bay. Along the harbor there were a bunch of sea lions on the docs, hummingbird and bees around some pretty flowers and most excitingly a nursery area for sea otters. So I spent a bunch of time shooting at the harbor and then made a nice drive up the coast. A mellow end to a really lovely vacation, something much needed in this stressful times. It was also a little bit of a celebration as I got my second Pfizer shot the day before I left for the trip.

It is my sincere hope that you and your family are vaccinated soon, and that you to can get the opportunity to safely get out of your comfort zone and get a real vacation. ~ Rev Kane

Finally, enjoy some photos from the day.

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A Real Vacation – Part 2 (The Madonna Inn)

A Real Vacation – Part 2 (The Madonna Inn)

The other day I wrote the first part of this, A Real Vacation – Part 1 (Anza Borrego). And after three days of literally having my phone turned off I was feeling pretty good. Unfortunately with severe winds the last night, it seemed that every time I fell asleep a wind gust would smack the tent and wake me up. So while the wind finally settled down about 4 AM, I wasn’t resting well and was fully awake at 7AM. So I got up and packed up camp and was ready to be on the road by 8AM.

Given that I was about a 5 hour drive to the place I was staying that night, I decided to stay analog and pulled out my paper map of California. I took the long way from Borrego Springs to San Luis Obispo via a cruise along the coast of the Salton Sea, around Twenty-nine Palms and Joshua Tree National Park and then across Route 66 heading west. It was a beautiful drive through the desert, a beautiful and long drive. I ended up arriving at the Madonna Inn about 4PM.

The Madonna Inn is someplace I’ve heard about for a long time. It’s an old and huge hotel complex with a secret garden, tennis courts, restaurants and a spa. It has a bunch of theme rooms from Elvis themes, to lots of cave-like rooms like the room I stayed in, the Swiss Rock Room. The room was certainly a trip with stone everything, floors, walls and a complete stone bathroom. It’s an older hotel, so the wifi wasn’t great and the set up was a bit odd, but I was paying for the experience. I walked down the street and picked up some good Chinese food and had a lovely night in the Swiss Rock Room.

A couple of pictures of the room

And some shots of the flowers in the secret garden

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